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So as i was rewriting all of this, the consistantly overthinking and planning part of my brain was creating friction with the advice I was practicing to allow myself to let go of worrying and to accept an outcome. How can you some times just “not care?” my brain begged me to answer.
it was all written ad lib over the last few pages and feels a lot nicer than my first version where they just… yelled at each other for not too much reason. hmm. but of course i edited a lot of it to be my characters talking and not just me alone in my bedroom at midnight talking to myself haaaaaaa
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Ash looks pensive. "Isn't it normal to look up to someone, though? They're doing well-"
Ash's face lights up. "And i wanna do well too!"
he looks to CJ. "Don't you look up to your siblings?"
CJ replies. "Don't 'ave any."
Ash leans forward as he rests on the counter side. with CJ opposite resting her hand on the glass. "Oh, right. But still, don't you worry that you might just... let your parents, lets people down?"
CJ looks honestly at him. "What makes you think I don't? It's natural, right?"
Ash emotes with his hands. "I find it... I don't know, I find it really hard to tell if you... it's great not to worry about things, but then, erm, how do I say this erm, nicely? If you don't worry about something even a little, then do you really fully... care?"
Ash's face lights up. "And i wanna do well too!"
he looks to CJ. "Don't you look up to your siblings?"
CJ replies. "Don't 'ave any."
Ash leans forward as he rests on the counter side. with CJ opposite resting her hand on the glass. "Oh, right. But still, don't you worry that you might just... let your parents, lets people down?"
CJ looks honestly at him. "What makes you think I don't? It's natural, right?"
Ash emotes with his hands. "I find it... I don't know, I find it really hard to tell if you... it's great not to worry about things, but then, erm, how do I say this erm, nicely? If you don't worry about something even a little, then do you really fully... care?"